family.

My family life somehow changed drastically.. Dad become more of the family guy doing the chores, Mom is nowhere to be found but last heard working outside and Brother is busy with his upcoming Battle Of The Year(Singapore).

I begin to love my dad more and more.
He provides the family with everything it needs.
The money he worked so hard to get is pumped into utility bills, phone bills, my education.. etcetc..
now that i realise what hes going through, i decided to be more independent.
shall not ask if for extras unless i really have to.
I pity him and blame myself for not being able to think hard enough in the past.
i've wasted so many years retaining in secondary school.
Normal(A) was already bad enough, and i still retain in sec 3.
2 years wasted.
if not, i should be already out of poly and preparing myself for NS.
Dad always tell me.. i want you to go University and get a double degree.
I thought " i would love to.. but can i? "
so i told him okay.
but im not really doing so well in poly but manage to get into year 2.
year 2 is really a BUSY year.
just looking at my time table would make me wanna hop off the roof.(nah, joking)
aiming to do well in this semester 2.1
went around to look for a CCA as well.
SPORTS CLIMBING.
went for the orientation and found out that climbing is not so easy after all.
u need to have strength+technique.
not so simple.
hope that i can get into the team.(20 people max)
currently 300+ people signed up, but my new friend whom ive made during day 1 of the orientation told me he would not come anymore as hes here to try out only.
i dont know to be happy or sad.
just hope that this time round, i must earn their team shirt.
to be the top/best 20.

Went to my cousin's birthday party and PasirRis Chalet.
Saw my grandmother yesterday..
she still look fine and healthy =)
missed her and had a nice conversation with her.
she told me she didnt feel well these days and also visited a doctor.
just hope that shes really fine.
Big Shout Out to Yuda * happy birthday , didnt get u anything because im tight lately. hoped u enjoy yr party last night =D *

Woke up around 10:40am this morning by a call looking for my dad.
feel like a few more mins of sleep could be more perfect.
dad wasnt around as he went to buy food for my and my brother.
so i went to use the pc awhile.
felt tired again after my meal and went back to sleep.
woke up at 3:45pm feeling more tired.
guess i didnt wanna sleep anymore and here i am blogging.
actually wanted to study.
but couldnt find my foolscape paper.
damn.


Sometimes.....
life is full of mysteries.. what you hear may not be the truth..
and when somehow you stumbled across the fact.. its hard to believe what you see..