Today.

As i woke up from my sleep, everything turned grey.
I was feeling gloomy like the colours around me has been ripped away.
Went to the toilet to wash my face and as i looked into the mirror, i saw a sad person. I quickly walked out of the toilet and went into my room.
I took out my text book to study in hope to forget every single thought i have.
Realise that it seems rather useless. Just wouldnt work. Laid my head on the table,
wishing that i have super natural powers to brainwash myself for today.
I then looked up and saw the photo frame you gave. I felt even more terrible deep down, that i put it away so i cannot see any pictures of you.
Laid my head on the table again, closed my eyes and trying to put you aside for a moment. Though i sometimes wonder if today was a dream and wished that maybe it is.
The more i think, the more my eyes became watery.
The more i ponder, the tears fell on my cheek.

Felt slightly better but was thinking maybe i could scream things out.
Nah, better not.
All i could do is to pour out my sorrows here.
Not brave enough indeed.
I hoped to myself that i could have a call from you once you woke up,
but felt that its just a one sided wish.
At the same time wished that you will never call till night time.
I dont know..
Just wanna see you, seem so difficult.
Your attachment starts next week and makes it even more difficult.
Its never easy to possess you for a long time.
oh well, thats life.
Even on my day off, which no books are suppose to be infront of me to make me study,
still happened.
I just wanna forget all unhappy things.
Perhaps i'll drown myself with books today.
=) yeah.
hope you'll enjoy yrself and be happy today.
yup. thats it.