dad's not feeling well these days..
i suppose smoking is the main cause of those really terrible coughs hes having now..
he wont be a addict to smoking because of heavy stress..
sigh..

saving up to buy a new bag too..
guess i will only be able to do so after 2 weeks..
$179 dollars.. i bet u all know in mind .. CRUMPLER bag..



lol..
time to upgrade myself..
or rather.. pamper myself.. hehee...
been studying maths for the afternoon... feel so contented and slack now though theres more to study for other subjects.. =/
argghh.....
stress is approaching the maximum limit...
sian lei.. 7:40pm now.. what should i do.. AHhh.. i remember.. DANCE FLOOR GRAND FINALS.. gotta watch.. hehe..
think i shall go prepare abit for a hour long tv show.. =)
thats it

ahhhhh... 2months of being a totally books free person and now im so dead..
maths seem so hard now where it was so easy 3months ago.. =(
damn.. i need help.. seriously.. lol
forgotten most of the important laws and rules of maths..
which is apparently not benefiting me..
oh god.
12397427356724692376918237
numbers pls come back..
dont anyhow fly..
=x
anyway.. i hate JAVA and its back again.. O.M.G!
wonder am i gonna get grades like.. C+, D , D+ again?
damn..

ahh.. i miss u baby.
give me a lonnnnggggg hottttttt kissssss tml yea? =x
o.o my battery life is getting shorter and shorter.. haha..
grows only with u.. =)

feel

we will be strong..
together we stand as proud as mount everest..
nothing will blow us apart..
e promises.. e everything..
we will fulfill them..
like what we believe we could do..
yea its u.. and me .. ur silly boy.. =)

tired.

im tired of how the things are today..
things that goes on around me..
things that slaps me in the face and calls me loser..
things that pours cold and heavy water on my head..
things that lets me fall onto the ground and make me scream in agony..
things that makes me think and think so much..
things that knocks me out just like that *snap*
things that tell me im weak..
things that cannot make me think calmly but only the negative thoughts..
things that they thought is nothing but they dont know the pain..
things that they really ought to know.. but cant seem to know..
and i dont know why..
maybe you tell me why..
anyone.. you out there..
yea..

sch is starting tomorrow..

yeah thats it.. end of holidays..
happy or sad? i dont know really..
oh well, its gonna be tough i guess to even have time to rest..
i must plan well.. do well..
=)
for everything.. and for you..
go eat lo~~ ^^

so unfair.

my time table is screwed.
monday : 9am - 7pm
tuesday : 1pm - 5pm
wednesday : 9am - 4pm
thursday : 10am - 5pm
friday : 9am - 1pm ( only this day quite ok )

wth? its like a year 3 student's time table..
even other poly's year 3 time table also not like this..
( u know i'm refering to u darling. =x )
anyway.. aiyah.. dunno la..
feel like .. arghh!!
1 semester leH!
the road is so tough....
oh god ( if theres any ) , please give me the strength to walk,crawl..etcetc..

envy all my friends time table..
some even dont have any lessons on tuesday..
its so so unfair..
i dont think its fair that i keep quiet..
cos its SO UNFAIR.. LOL!
=(
why la..
ok la i try to endure.. =x
time to prepare as im meeting sha gua later.. =P

a little story to tell after a short 5months.. =]

=)

its a monday.
lol.
bored.
happy tuesday to u all tomorrow.
=)

looking far far away.

4:16am.
couldnt sleep.
probably unable to do so for some time.
dont know why.
feeling not so right.
looking far into outer space.
there were more than stars.
i saw .. your face.
hope you sleep well.

need to stop.

i need to stop it..
its killing me..
maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks
no more maple!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhh..

Dreams.

bahh... just wanna put up some thoughts that always been running around my mind.

- a laptop with the best speed, ram.. etcetc ( and get a router after that. )
- a driving license.
- save up to 50k in my bank.
- good grades.
- good CCA.
- to get married at 27. ( so my future wife is around 26 )
- CAR ( lousy one nvm.. can transport myself back home and enjoy a drive in the middle of the night is also wonderful )
- a son. ( how about a daughter as well.. ? )
- to stop taking money from my dad after NS.
- mom to cook for the family at least once a week.
- brother to lead a more realistic and down to earth life.
- last but not least, my final dream is to hope all the dreams i've mention come true.

thats it.

how unexpected.

perhaps its fated one day, even yr very love ones will leave you.
and whatever they, will come true one day.
i fear that very day.. that very day that will bring me down to tears.
why has it always got to come?
screw it seriously.
people do change, because of some people.
they became worst, their looks change, their attitude change.
sigh.
as for what i can do, is just the little bits not to burden them.
hoping that they could just smile for another time.
not asking for more.
thats it.

its 1+ in the morning

yeah.. blogging so early. lol.
actually im still in maple, but its a good thing that priest can slack while training and so i alt tab out to blog.. =P
my silly girl have just went to bed also..
got this "wanting to go bed also" feeling struck me.
lol.



hehe, look at the aunty behind us.
omg, her face.. lol.

-Saturday-

Woke up, played game..
then kylie came over to my place and we played ard..
laughed here and there.. lol.
and went to tampines for dinner ard 8pm
sent her home after that.

-sunday-

Woke up, played game..
slacked ard...
slacked a little more..
lol.. whole day slack only..

my plans for tomorrow!!
must go jogging..
been staying at home too much..
have to work out a little, if not will become very unhealthy.
nono, that aint gonna happen..
kelvin, u must make the effort to go out and exercise !
lol...
1:30am now.. wanna stop playing game already..
gonna slp soon..
what a unhealthy time to slp also
zz..
better go get some rest now..
good night everybody! ^^